Soul Searching Amidst Constant Change

It wouldn't be entirely accurate, but there is some significance to the saying that a person is the sum of his experiences. In my opinion, there's one other important factor - chronology. I have found that there is something to be said about the sequence in which one experiences life that makes it all the more poignant. That has moulded my perspective of events this year so far. Today (it being slightly past midnight), we shall live through the last day of February, very quickly entering the third month. It now has begun to feel like it's a new year all in its own, and I'm quite looking forward, albeit with some wary anticipation, to what lies in store. Some things I can expect, many others I can't, and as with other unknowns in the past, I would not have it any other way.

My friends will very soon graduate from BMT the following Wednesday in a Passing Out Parade that is sure to be a fulfilling ceremony. Right now, the only things I have in common with them are 6 weeks on Tekong and the same date when all this ends, 7th November 2010. As to whether I've come to any resolution with regards to how I feel about the direction I should be taking, I discover that there might be something to staying in my current place of work for a while. That does not change my constant search for how to position myself better for changes of a positive nature, as I've been doing without fail, increasing my awareness and all. But office work is at least something I can ease into, with all it's stereotypical oddities like finding the Recruit section of the newspaper interesting and finding new meaning in performing at-your-desk-in-your-office-chair-blood-circulating exercises.

I was given a bit of a reprieve this morning when I took half a day off to attend ACS' 123rd Founder's Day Thanksgiving Service, where my year mates and I received our academic awards for the IB exams. I was sitting next to Gerald in the 43 points row, whom I talked to about everything from the army to American Idol during most of the service, and we were kind of marooned because to our left and right were seats left vacant by our absent classmates. To our front were Agi, Elliot and Patrick, and Mai way back in the perfect scorers' aisle rounded up the head count from our class. I left immediately after our year's awards were given out instead of staying for the citations and joining them for lunch because I had to get back to work during the second half of the day. It was nice to see some familiar faces in a familiar environment again though, including my year 4 classmates Yew Jin and Elendrus. Altogether it really doesn't come up to more than 2 handfuls of friends I know well enough to speak to comfortably, but that doesn't take away from the pleasant time spent there. Additionally, while backstage, I met Mrs Mervyln Goh, who told me that she had just shown my IOC script for King Lear Extract 18 to her current class (nice to know I have left a little legacy of some sort), and I also dropped off my request for a referral from her. This is for NUS' USP; I have a place in FASS.

Next week heralds a little more change; I'm meant to be on course, and I'm not too sure what to expect from it. I probably won't blog as much because what time I don't spend there will be spent doing productive stuff like finishing up Alan Moore and Dave Gibbon's The Watchmen before catching the movie. Though I won't be at my friends' POP, I look forward to meeting all of them again once I finish my course and while they're still on block leave.