The reversal is now complete

My two blogs have now exchanged roles completely, with this one taking on the arduous task of articulating the less public of my rants.

Not a month has passed in 8 years that there has not been a blog post here, and on this the last day of November 2010, I think it is appropriate to put some thoughts down. Actually, just one thought: when I find someone who is too similar to you in the things they do and the time you are together in the same place or context, there's a peak that is reached after which there emerges in me this unbearable, inexplicable fear that I've been acting in some socially unacceptable manner. I begin to imagine the evidence, but for the most (or rather, every) part, there is nothing others see; it's all in my head. It's sucky, but slowly I'm telling myself: it's all imaginary. The one thing i need is to be able to be myself completely without inhibition around anyone, and life would be very much as I'd most enjoy it to be.

1237: just before 5 in the afternoon

1. somewhere between 3 and 5 (which is to say, 4 something like it is now) on a random weekday back in june, we sat at macs with their since-gone (is it still around, anyone knows?) afternoon 3-for-5 promotion. I think back to it only as I find watching the shanghai masters semifinal 1 in the closing minutes of 4intheafternoon cause for wanting to eat macs, drink koi, and do stuff that are generally comforting.

2. night to me affords us the most time, because when the sun is down it feels like it's never gonna come up. day time, however, is always gonna end, and we usually start it somewhere when it's already at or past it's golden hours. yes, i do look forward to nights more than days. go figure.

Free Tomorrow?

and you tweet far too little.

at least the last one had me in it(:

wondering

if i get to have plans for tonight and tomorrow with the friends that matter.

conference dates

1. Planetshakers: 12-15 APRIL 2011, MELBOURNE, AUSTRALIA

2. Hillsong: TUES 5TH - FRI 8TH JULY 2011, Acer Arena, Sydney Olympic Park, Australia

It's 2 in the morning

agenda for the weekend:

1. church meeting in the morning

2.

right, that's about it for now, phew!

friday the 13th

a blog post to answer a blog post where an FB comment referenced a tweet. welcome to social networking: the new conversation. if you are, then give a sign you've read.

I think wakeboarding counts as 'vigorous exercise', don't you?

euphemism

welcome, fellow sgporeans, to what we call 'seventh month festivities': pollution in the name of religion

2 Monday from now / I met with God

Looming?

A brilliant 2andahalf days spent hands lifted, next to great friends, walkingchattinglaughing, and sleeping in on a Sunday afternoon for the first time since I left school. My mind races, and I believe I've still got a little portion of it racin' after you (:

Besides these thoughts, and a verse for good measure:

Malachi 3:10 (New International Version)

¹⁰ Bring the whole tithe into the storehouse, that there may be food in my house. Test me in this," says the LORD Almighty, "and see if I will not throw open the floodgates of heaven and pour out so much blessing that you will not have room enough for it.

Spanish vine whip

Last night was meant to be with you, but it wasn't; at least it's morning, and you'll be there in just a few minutes. 'cos it's sunday!

Phone calls after adjudication, huge saturday lunch and dinners at everything with fries and botak jones, a full day's immersion in debate that prompts thoughts in a ferrari of doing it again in the last two months of this year. Here's to another excellent weekend.