Not a month has passed in 8 years that there has not been a blog post here, and on this the last day of November 2010, I think it is appropriate to put some thoughts down. Actually, just one thought: when I find someone who is too similar to you in the things they do and the time you are together in the same place or context, there's a peak that is reached after which there emerges in me this unbearable, inexplicable fear that I've been acting in some socially unacceptable manner. I begin to imagine the evidence, but for the most (or rather, every) part, there is nothing others see; it's all in my head. It's sucky, but slowly I'm telling myself: it's all imaginary. The one thing i need is to be able to be myself completely without inhibition around anyone, and life would be very much as I'd most enjoy it to be.
