i had lunch with Sam, Adriel and Pet at Sam's place this afternoon, where we ordered in and ate in front of the TV, watching CSI NY and Miami and Mel Gibson's Apocalypto. 

i left early seeing as i needed to get myself ready for tomorrow's Prelim papers. 

having tried to adopt a slightly different mindset to these exams, i had thought that my entire outlook would be calmer. 

alas, that really was a pipe dream. 

whatever they tell you, exams aren't exams until you get that nervous sensation. 

and truthfully, i wouldn't have it any other way. 

the adrenaline, nerves, anticipation or whatever that grips me before every paper is where, ironically, i feel most at ease, if only because i'm familiar with it. 

Penultimate.